Selecting school

Today we went to see two schools for Aarshi. Both schools are in NY. Well, I liked the Creative Arts school. It had more space, looked organized and quality of teachers seemed good. However, it is 15 min drive from here. I am not sure how would the commute be in the morning. I want to give the best schooling to Aarshi because I know what great difference a right school environment means. I still have to check the school at Kenosia Ave. She must start socializing now.
It is 4:00pm now. I have practiced perpendicular driving. You know the motivation behind getting a license now is that I want to take out Aarshi to various places esp library.

What I feel today

Today, I cancelled the furniture order. Why did I cancelled it? Well, there were multiple reasons. Firstly, I have now gotten this habit where I feel that anything that I do for myself is a waste and there are other important things that needed to be taken care of. Second, I have some big expenses which is from my family so I morally feel that I should not spend any "unnecessary " money. Third, I know Vishal was halfheartedly into it. Fourth, I didn't find many choices at Bob's. So overall again I had to suppress my desire. I don't know how suppressing my feelings and wants will affect my well being but it certainly doesn't make me happy. I try to keep my spirits high by looking at other valuable aspects of my life. They do give me satisfaction for some time but I have to recharge myself after every couple of days. Tomorrow we have to go and look at this new school for Aarshi. Let;s see what tomorrow has in store for me.